Finally, the Phantom worries are over!! No more CHORAL SPEAKING!!! XDXD I helped out with the prop also, the chandelier, me and Ricko did it perfectly! Credit to Indon. Yesterday, passed with a blur, my grandparents came to visit us from Ipoh, and yeah be jealous Chong, cuz I don't need to go back! XP. And today, well, today I feel sleepy, that's all. Sleepy. Slept till 9 30, went makan, came home, study a bit, slept again, watched tv, slept again, then went online. Someone gave me sleepy medi (: Haha I'm gonna sleep at 1am today again, gonna watch F1. Woots. Oh yeah, I just realized, I have already let her go. I feel light headed. Might be the sleeping though.. (:

Song I'm Listening To: Wonderwall - Boyce Avenue
Mood: Still sleepy. What the fuck?

Alex. P.S. Sorry its short (:

Why are you doing this to me?

Do you know it hurts?

Am I gay? If I am, why the FUCK do I still LOVE you?

Is it an excuse?

A lie?

Why won't you talk to me?

Why would you sacrafice yourself?

You would rather fall down yourself then to sit at the place I offered you?

You would rather die then get back together?

WHAT THE BLOODY HELL?

Why am I killing myself?

When I know that I might not stand a chance?

Why am I suffering under you?

Why do I still like you?

Why am I here?

Why care about these blogs?

Why care about my life?

Do you know for this past week, I have not slept more then 5 hours a day?

I can not eat!

If I force it down, I would fucking vomit!

Why the hell do you have to look so beautiful?

Why the hell can't I forget you?

Why?

Why?

WHY?


I tried letting go, but I just can't sorry.

I still love you.

I always did.

You know who you are.

Needless I say much.

I love you.


Listening to: My heartbeats, and Rehab - Rihanna ft Justin Timberlake
Mood: No mood.

P.S. Stress gone. Haha. I would now pleasently curse and laugh.

Alex. No good trying to forget, now trying to retrieve.

Yesterday was FUN!!

Yesterday, was one of the funnest days in my life!! Went to pick Enricko and Ian up from Ricko's house, then went to the LRT station. Wow, I was wearing a Nike shirt and Enricko an Adidas shirt. Only Ian wore an Manchester United shirt and a Jason Mraz t-shirt under it. Had me and Enricko laughing till we almost cried.

Sat LRT till Masjid Jamek station, and when we went down the train to STAR LRT, they were a bloody lot of Manchester United fans q-ing up to get the tickets! We were stuck in the middle, being squeezed like sandwiches.

Once inside the STAR LRT, guess what? More Manchester United fans coming in! I wanted to throw up seeing so many Man Utd fans, but... We were squeezed like bloody sardines now.

Finally, after an agonizing hour, we reached Bukit Jalil. We stepped out the train with relief, and got a bloody shock of our lives. No words to describe how many people were there flooding into the stadium. A sea of red. Ian suggested to search for Malaysian supporters. Spotted about 20 of them. Enricko can't control his laughter, sent all of us into stomachaches for so little Malaysian supporters.

Before the match started, the whole stadium did a Mexican Wave, I loved that. People were screaming their lungs out during kick off. Rooney scored the first goal, and Nani scored the second. Then on came Malaysian hero of the day, Mohd. Amri Yahyah. One of the best goals I have seen! Sent the whole crowd into a screaming session. I think the screaming lasted longer then the Man Utd goals. The whole stadium was GOAL, MALAYSIA BOLEH.

Second half, was another Amri Yahyah goal, Ben Foster did a blunder, and another goal for Malaysia! Then people shouted for Owen to come on, and he did so. Guess what, he scored the winning goal for Manchester United. Another shouting frenzy.

Finally, full time. Ian, Ricko and I went to buy burger, and sat down to let the crowd disperse before we went home on the LRT. But, the stupid police closed the bloody gate for the LRT station!! Again we found ourselves being squashed. Pity us.

Oh yeah, someone said that Liverpool sucks at the LRT. That was funny. Finally, at 9:30, we reached home. Well, Ricko and Ian did, but not me, I still wanted to eat something. So I went somewhere to "bungkus" something home. Then made Maggi Mee and makan makan. XD. Took shower and went to sleep. Was too tired. X).

Today passed on without much. Bored. HAHA (:

Song I'm Listening To: Sugar - Flo-rida ft Wynter
Mood - Bored

Alex.

GOD, JAKARTA IS BOMBED. AGAIN.

Today, around 8:40 am, Jakarta's Ritz Carlton and J.W Marriot got bombed. For JW Marriot hotel its the second time in 10 years i think. Thank god I'm in Malaysia.

Anyways, today's school was whole day, choral speaking. Choral Speaking, Choral Speaking, Choral Speaking, Choral Speaking, Choral Speaking, Choral Speaking, Choral Speaking, Choral Speaking, Choral Speaking, Choral Speaking, Choral Speaking, Choral Speaking, Choral Speaking, Choral Speaking, Choral Speaking, Choral Speaking, Choral Speaking, Choral Speaking, Choral Speaking. Getting soar throat. Shit.

Something happened after school, and i wish my brother the best. X) haha you don't need to know what.

After school me and Ian went to Maan's house, we arrived there first, then Philip, Enricko and Johan came. It was so funny there my stomachache came again. (Guys, I'm not complaining ;)). Manchester United won Barcelona 3-2. Woohoo.

Can't wait for tomorrow's Manchester United vs Malaysia XI. I'm going with Ian and Enricko. Picking them up at 3:30 I think. Then go to Bukit Jalil Stadium using the LRT. Gonna be fun, and maybe meeting up Johan. Can't wait.

Song I'm listening to: Te Amo - Rihanna ( It means I love you in Spanish )
Mood: My ex? Shit. I promised not to lie in my blog. So yeah I am thinking of her now.

Peace - war, love - hate, miss - get lost.


I have never been in this position before. Shit.

Can my heart make a stupid decision?

ZZZ studying to get this stupid thing outta my mind.


Anyways, I need credit. i only have 4 cents left. 4 sms. Haha. thanks Active 10.

Gtg.

Song I'm listening to: Wake Me Up When September Ends - Green Day
Mood: Sheepish. ZZZ just finished SA. (:

Alex.

(: Girl you din't throw me down a drain.

I learnt well not to take things for granted. And love cannot be forced. I know and I do confess, I do feel somehow down, but I got up quickly. Thats life. Nothing's perfect. But there is a good side of everything. I took this as a lesson not to take things for granted.

Anyways now all I want is to talk to the other girl. A short memo for her:
It's been how long? 2 months? Do you know what happened during this 2 month duration? Nothing. Why the fuck are we walking around like each other never existed? Did you forget what I told you 2 months ago? Friends? The answer I got is a no. It's hurting me going around pretending you din't exist. I tried no talk to you. And it's not working. Can you stop giving the cold shoulder and forget the past and be friends again??


Forget the past, it's the future that matters.
I want to talk to you, I hope you understand (:

Song I'm Listening To: The Dynamo of Volition - Jason Mraz
Mood: Hopefull

Alex.

is a fun, lively, and annoying guy. He loves many random things, such as cursing, beatboxing, playing the guitar, cranking jokes, girls and other things. Blah, blah, blah and known as Gun Ga Zai, Sot Plug, Ah Lex and many others from people who hate to call my name. And is well knowned for his stupidity and happy self. I am Alex Hong and this is my blog. =D